So it’s been a very long time since I last blogged but I feel like I have a bunch of things to tell the world right now…

I feel at this time in my life like I am on a journey, one which is long overdue and is a little selfish. Not selfish in a way that I could hurt other people, but selfish in the way that I am doing a bunch of stuff to make ME a better person. Not sure where to start but I’m thinking maybe ONE thing at a time.

So I’m going to start with yoga…

I began yoga as a way to build upper body strength so that I could surf. I LOVE surfing but that is a story for another time (I’m not very good at it!!).

I began my serious yoga practice by doing a friday afternoon class every week. I found it was a great way to defragment from the week at work. I am the WORST when it comes to stopping thinking so meditation really comes tough to me – I continuously talk to myself about anything and everything and when I’m not talking about anything, I’m talking to myself about not talking about anything. So as much as yoga is a physical practice for me it has been a way of learning to stop judging my brain and it’s wandering and instead slow down and just let the thoughts happen. Don’t think them, just let them think themselves and be a listener listening to someone else talking. This is as close as I have gotten to meditation and I must say it’s a BIG improvement!!

I’ve taken many different classes and tried many different instructors and over time I have found that it becomes less and less about the instructor and more and more about your own attitude at a class. Of course a great instructor helps, but once you know how to do postures safely, you could practice with an average instructor and still get a good class out of it.

My favourite instructors have been the ones that don’t take the class too seriously and encourage people to give everything a try and not worry about what you look like. AND the ones that are clumsy in their words, lefts and rights, and are ready to have a giggle or to tell you something that exposes their vulnerability are the ones that I love the best. They bring a more human down to earth quality to the class as opposed to the instructors that are predictably cool, calm and collected. It might be just me being a clumsy person myself, but I do really feel more at home with an openly human instructor. I think that over the years of doing yoga and meeting these instructors I have learnt from them that you can be down to earth human and still be able to be a teacher.  Which is a very important lesson for me to learn.

For those that don’t know me well, I broke my wrist when I was 18yrs old and from an incident that happened the day it came out of plaster which I choose not to divulge at this time, it has been on the incorrect angle for a very long time. I have struggled with the wrist all throughout my yoga journey but I have learnt to work with it, work around it, and also learnt how to make it stronger! There is another story here that I will go into at  different time… The main point here is that I have learnt that even with damage (physical / mental / both) you can work through anything and get stronger and stronger the more practice you get.

Yoga has also taught me to be patient with myself – I may not be able to do a pose now, but if I keep working at it I will get there eventually. I am doing things I would never have dreamed I would be able to do a few years ago! I don’t have to be angry with myself if I can’t achieve something now…. if I want it enough, it will come… with patience.

Yoga has also made me into a morning person. And has changed my weekend leisure time wants. I would much more like to do a Saturday 7am yoga class than spend a friday night out drinking with friends just because. Don’t get me wrong – I still enjoy the friday night session hanging out; I just mean that these days I try to finish up early having drunk less and head home early to get enough sleep and be in a decent state to practice in the morning. Then I get the best of all worlds…. Some time with friends, some time out, some time practicing, and exercise done with early in the morning before most people wake up. 🙂

I love yoga and can see myself doing it more and more as my life changes for the better. And I think that yoga has played a big part in this change. It’s not for everyone, but it sure has worked for me. One of my dreams is to be able to spend two months in india doing yoga and surfing every day. I really hope that at some time in my life this will be possible. If I work towards it and keep the dream in sight, I’m sure I will make it there. 😀

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Week 3 DOWN!

September 3, 2012

So I’ve hit the hard part now. It’s the part of the challenge where you think “Why am I doing this?”, or “Where are the benefits?”.

It’s been 3 weeks since I indulged in alcohol. 3 weeks since that last soothing glass of red, that fun and playful shot of tequila, or that delicious and refreshing vodka soda with fresh lime…. And yes, I have DEFINITELY wanted a drink – probably on 3 separate occasions.

First occasion was after a tough work day. One of those days where you feel like you got nothing done, everything you did, you did wrong, and you came home with that feeling of not wanting to go back to that place again in the morning. Those days are hard. All I want to do on those days is pour myself a long glass of red, sit on the couch and cuddle my husband. You know what though? I could do two out of those three things, and feel better for it in the morning…. And so I resist.

Second occasion was when hanging out with one of my best friends who happens to LOVE beer. He doesn’t just enjoy beer, he LOVES it. He loves everything about it. He loves the taste, the presentation, and the uniqueness of a good craft beer. He has on one trip to a brewery paid more for a beer than I have EVER paid for a bottle of wine. He is one of the people I enjoy drinking with most. We talk A LOT of shit. And really good interesting shit. Life, technology, philosophy, etc… It’s a little hard though when you are not on the same level. Sometimes we fall out of practice of socialising sober. We forget what that feels like and how other peoples’ drunk conversations can take drastic twists and turns from one sentence to the next. And so I try and keep up (and wish I was drinking too).

The third occasion was last saturday night when eating at Miss Chiu’s. It was a cold wet evening in Sydney, and we were lucky to get a seat inside, but unlucky for me, the seat was at the bar. I ordered my food, and ate. All the while staring down the delicious martinis that were being shaken up in front of me, gazing longingly at the enticing tequila bottles, and admiring the ingenuity of the awesome bottles in the Elements of Islay range. Brilliant bottle, and what an awesome idea: mix whiskeys together, and produce something entirely unique with an unknown strength, and no mention of the age on the label. These actually made my mouth water… And I don’t drink whisky as a first choice! Probably almost a last choice (bourbon being my definite LAST choice!!)

3 weeks down, and the benefits aren’t yet evident. The hard parts make you question your decision to be sober, and the good parts aren’t really outweighing the choice to not be drunk quite yet.

On my trip to Sydney on the weekend I went to bed before midnight both nights after watching a couple of really good movies. I hung out doing a LOT of awesome chatting with a good friend who knows a LOT about everything and is really interesting to listen to, ask questions of, and debate with. I shopped at Glebe and Paddington markets minus the hangover this time round. I drank many cups of licorice tea (which I am TOTALLY digging right now!), and I went for a long walk along the coast and saw a massive pod of dolphins.

Looking at the times I WANTED a drink, and then comparing to the sober weekend I had away, there isn’t much difference. I still did the same stuff. I just did it with more energy, more clarity, and came home feeling totally refreshed and with a BIG smile on my face. I might be trying to convince myself, but I really think that had I drank I would have come home tired, wouldn’t have had good sleep as I did, and probably wouldn’t have done that long costal walk and seen those dolphins. I THINK anyway. Lets leave it at that….

Sooz SANS ALCOHOL

August 26, 2012

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At the beginning of this year I undertook a challenge to stop drinking alcohol for 3 months from the end of February until the end of May. I had undertaken Dry July several times over the previous year, so it really couldn’t be that hard right? Well, it wasn’t but then again it was.

Obviously being a glutton for punishment, I have committed to another 3 months no drinking starting 13th August ending 13th November. I never recorded my experiences the first time round. Many of my friends asked a LOT of questions while I was doing it, so I have made a promise to record my experiences this time hopefully to answer some of those questions and maybe to inspire other people to give the sober life a go as well.

I have never considered myself an alcoholic. I consider myself an average social drinker. On any given week I would drink 2-3 nights out with friends and possibly 1-2 nights at home. On the social occasions drinking with friends I was partial to a couple of tequilas and a couple of vodkas. These could easily add up to 6 drinks in a night. On the nights where I drank at home, it would be an average of 2 glasses of wine with dinner. Being a lover of good quality alcohol, I didn’t very often experience much of a hangover, so I never considered the amount I was drinking to be excessive. According to the National Guidelines for Alcohol Consumption I was drinking more than I should. Which means I am probably not doing myself any favours in aiming for a long healthy life.

So here I am for the second time this year and it is the end of Week 2. Even considering that I didn’t drink excessive amounts and didn’t drink every day, I still went through some withdrawal symptoms (not much helped by the fact that I got a gross snotty head cold at the same time). For the past two weeks I have had night sweats. Not a great deal, but enough for me to notice. This is one of those things that you don’t realise alcohol does, but your body has to get rid of the toxins somehow, and this is a pretty effective way of doing it. EWWW! Sweating icky stuff out and into my pyjamas….. Not the most pleasant thing in the world and it seems even more gross now I’m writing about it.

The second thing I notice is the dreams. Your dreaming becomes much more lucid and for the first week of no drinking, the dreams are not very pleasant. They are the kind of dreams that make you want to wake up and not go back to sleep. And you REMEMBER them on waking as well. I am one of those people who has a LOT of trouble switching my brain off, and a couple of drinks in the evening always made it STACKS easier to fall asleep. 2 weeks on, the dreaming is much more pleasant, but is still quite lucid.

Since I have been sick the past two weeks, I have not had a chance to actually be out socially as a non-drinker with no reason to not be drinking, so the discussions on that are yet to come. BUT I DO remember from the time I did this earlier in the year that in the first couple of social occasions I went to not drinking it was a challenge, but not overly difficult as I had built myself up to the challenge in a big way before I actually started it. I’ll leave those discussions for another blog.

Alongside my no drinking challenge, I am attempting to get back on my healthy eating and regular exercising wagon. So far I have NOT succeeded. I can’t seem to take a stand against chocolate. I LOVE chocolate. I eat it when I’m bored, when I’m stressed, when I think I deserve a reward, when I’m not drinking…… Ah! Not drinking = eating more chocolate. UGH! Last time I made a stand against chocolate, I went to a hypnotist to get some help. AND IT WORKED. Most of you will know that I lost about 10kg over the past 2 yrs. This was after seeing a hypnotist. So I am going again this Thursday for a ‘top-up’ session. Sort of fits in with my whole ‘detox’ theme…. Till then…..

People often say that motivation doesn’t last. Well, neither does bathing – that’s why we recommend it daily. – Zig Ziglar

RSF 2011

January 3, 2011

If you are a fan of electronic music, art, and alternative living/ideas, then Rainbow Serpent Festival is probably right up your alley…..

There are heaps of workshops, music all weekend for all tastes, entertainment for the kids, and always something interesting happening. Good people, good times. 🙂

RAINBOW SERPENT FESTIVAL 2011

Taxidermy anyone?

January 3, 2011

 

It is a slightly taboo subject, but when you think of Taxidermy as a celebration of life, your view may change. Julia DeVille is a jeweller who thinks that death is not something to be afraid of, and that Taxidermy is the preservation of something beautiful. I tend to agree. I love Julia’s work. Check out her website and see what you think…..

Julia DeVille

Lazy Sunday?

September 12, 2010

Get down to this and pick up a bargain!

LEGO!

September 5, 2010

Last night I went to visit a good friend of mine to watch Sweeny Todd on video…. Yes…. VIDEO, but that is not the point of this post so I will leave that thought with you.

Tonight I’m posting about LEGO (and Star Wars, but mostly LEGO).

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Outpost

August 1, 2010

I messaged my friend Lucy this morning cause I felt like going out somewhere nice for brekkie (and Lucy is a bit of a foodie too, so I knew she’s be up for it!!). She suggested a place called Outpost in South Yarra where she had actually been for brekkie yesterday (and will probably go back there again tomorrow!!!). I did a quick scan on the net before I went there and general consensus was that the food was yummy and the service was bad. Well, YUP – that’s exactly what it was. Worth going to for the food, but def not for a quick meal. I had to cancel the second pot of karma sutra chai tea I was waiting for by the time we were almost finished our meal (of which the first was served lukewarm anyways so don’t think I missed out too much)

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If you have ever wondered what is on the inside, then this is for you! The Amazing Bodies exhibition is an anatomy class without the test at the end. You can’t fail this, and you don’t have to dissect anything yourself (you can call me morbid BUT that IS one of the best bits of studying anatomy!!!)…. When I make it there I’ll report back…

Revolver vs BMX

July 28, 2010

Like Revolver?

Like BMX?

Get along to this tonight (and have a good time for me!!)… 🙂